About Me

Hello!

My name is Emma or Em (she / her). I’m a transfem living in the united states.

Trans?

Indeed.

I’ve recently started my journey. Like many others, I had absolutely no idea I could be trans… Thoughts like “Nah; you’re far too much of a dude to do something like that” or “Do you know just how much your family wouldn’t approve?” come to mind.

But here I am!

Progress so far?

I’ve identified as Emma since November 17, 2023! Here’s what I know so far (keep in mind I will be updating this section sometimes):

I have not been anywhere near as depressed as I once was.

Like many others, I was very depressed and not happy where my life was going. I recently failed a Cisco networking course because I could not get myself to understand subnetting combined with serious burnout and… Nope! This sent me into months of depression and thinking I wasn’t good enough among many, many other issues.

However, since starting my transition I’ve been feeling much better! I feel I can better express myself, feel much more valued, etc. And I feel like I can actually be creative again!

I feel I can more relate to my friends now

Literally all (accept for a few) of my friends are trans or something. I always felt like the odd one out. But that feeling of being left out came with something else…

I was unsure what that something else was. Like an emptyness. This would then turn into depression and such, leading to the above issues. I would never write code or mess around with other related projects because I felt like nobody would care. I would never set up new fun things because I felt like nobody would care and it would be a waste of my time. I would sit there for hours (days, really) wondering what was wrong with me. Why I could never fit in. If this depression would ever fuck off!

And… I’ve found something! I don’t yet know how truly effective this is as it’s only been a week and getting used to a change like this one is hard for me. Overall I feel so much better, though. I can finally be interested in projects again and can sit down and do things like write this website without the constant feeling of… Never being good enough?

Final thoughts?

I’d like to thank you for reading my story! I’ve never been much of a writer (especially about myself). So I hope someone found this valuable in some way.

Interests

Like the list from the homepage, but with much more stuff in it!

Technology

I’ve always been interested in technology from a very young age. I do server administration as a hobby and I am about to go back to school to study cybersecurity. I would also be a Cisco Networking II graduate, but I’m not due to a bunch of issues (see above). But networking (software, usually) is interesting to me too!

Servers

I usually run Debian-based servers. They run anything from web servers (for other websites I host) to internal home network stuff (such as PiHole), and I enjoy helping others do the same things.

I try to host as much as possible within Docker containers. I feel it’s better that way.

I wouldn’t claim to be an expert in any regard; just one who knows how to research if I get stuck.

Other Tech

I enjoy all types of other technology, too! This includes (but is most certainly not limited to):

Thanks for reading!

Please expect this stuff will be updated a lot. This is an ever-growing source of information about me!